up in the air

Whenever things just happen they always seem so life or death. Part of that is probably my dramatic nature, maybe most of that. But once you get a chance to breathe things are so much more trivial. Those moments that seem life changing at the time, may not really change anything.

I think I really need to work on taking things so seriously and learn to let go. Not everyone is me, and everyone handles things differently and values different things. Just because they don't share my values does not mean I should respect them any less. I just need to learn to accept it and focus more of my attention on things that I have control of.

kill the lights

Blogging is not as fun as I remember.

lost

It's so hard to gain a little perspective. So many times, I'm stuck in the moment, in the now of it all. This is what I want right now. I'm so focused on the crack in the sidewalk that I fail to see the winding trail.

Attempting to see the bigger picture and gain a little "perspective" trims those mountains down to hills. Maybe what I want right now, isn't what's best for me in the long run. I mean, I know it's not. And when I put things into perspective it makes these times easier to handle.

Sometimes what you want and what's best for you fail to align. Probably more times than not.

the calm before the storm

The opposite of this. Still can't put my finger on it!

the epitome of complicated

When do we tell lies? I think we lie when we know we are doing something we shouldn't be doing. Deep down we tell ourselves, we know what is best for us. But the truth is, we know it isn't, that's why we have to lie to the people closest to us. Because we know they know what's best for us. And what we're doing, they simply wouldn't approve. So we lie to them, and ultimately to ourselves.

That's when you know you should start questioning and thinking twice about your actions, if they result in lying to someone's face.

And the irony is, 9 times out of 10, they'll know you're lying.

sprinkles

Brave new girl.