can i be your memory

He was still too young to know that the heart's memory eliminates the bad and magnifies the good, and that thanks to this artifice we manage to endure the burden of the past.

that girl

She's the girl that has a few best friends and doesn't need anymore, the girl that laughs the hardest at her own jokes. She's the girl that will hang up on you, but then call you right back and say sorry. She's the girl who will never leave your side when you need her, the girl who will go out of her way to cheer you up. She's the girl who never sleeps without her teddy bear by her side, she's the girl who says she isn't ticklish, but really is. She's the girl who will not give up on you if she really believes in you. She's the girl who believes in loving somebody forever.

fly away

If you're a bird, I'm a bird.

dim

a product of loneliness? or the real thing?

sometimes the lines get so blurred.

touch

All anyone wants is someone to hold them.

Hold them like they'll never let go.

Hold them as if they've never held anyone else.

twisted

His grandmother had taught him that there was no such thing as coincidence. There are millions of people in this world, she had told him, and the spirits will see that most of them, you never have to meet. But there are one or two that you are tied to, and spirits will cross you back and forth, threading so many knots until they catch and you finally get it right.

run

To dream that you are afraid of an elephant suggests that there is an enormous problem that you are afraid to confront.

nyc

luster

The beginning is always more fun isn't it?

The beginning is full of hope and possibilities.

The excitement lies in the unknown.

But after the excitement dies down,

Things and people begin to lose their luster.

by myself

I don't know when this started. But I'm deathly afraid of being alone.

seashell

I thought that she was everything I wanted to be.

Because she was everything you wanted.

But I've come to realize that I don't want to be anything like her.

I want to be unapologetic. I want to speak my mind. I want to be inspiring.

I want to be me.

ouch

I swear. I must be a masochist!

blew

I couldn't convince you that the blue you see is the same blue that I see. But maybe that's how lovers know they're meant to love; they see the same blue. And they both know it.

happy

I feel happy tonight. I don't know why but I'm thankful for it.

I finally understand the saying, "it is better to give than to receive". Seeing my friends happy filled me with a different kind of joy than the happiness that usually comes from my own personal satisfaction.

teardrops

I'm a lot stronger than I thought.

Never mourn for anything twice.

nuevo

People always say to challenge yourself and that you'll "grow" from new experiences. Well I hate new experiences. I just feel uncomfortable. Maybe I'll learn a thing or two but in a couple of months I'm going to be back to normal, like it never happened. So what's the point really. Really. Is that super immature?

standing

We all think we're going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when out expectations aren't met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.

crazier

I wish the world didn't have to hurt so much.

I wish things could just be simpler and everyone I loved could be happier.

It's weird how you can have perfectly good days that leave you feeling empty and lonely at the end.

done?

[Mission "done" officially starts now. I deserve more than that. Now come and find me..]

Now that I look back at this post, I realize that my mission was pretty successful. Someone else did find me, although apparently I am not worthy enough to hold on to. Maybe I don't deserve more than that. What makes me so special. Why should I deserve more than anyone else. We're all human are we not? And I'm just me.

Maybe my problem is that I'm waiting for people to find me.

All I can do is try to be the best version of myself.

M.I.A.

lately, you've been missing from my dreams. come find me.