happy

I feel happy tonight. I don't know why but I'm thankful for it.

I finally understand the saying, "it is better to give than to receive". Seeing my friends happy filled me with a different kind of joy than the happiness that usually comes from my own personal satisfaction.

teardrops

I'm a lot stronger than I thought.

Never mourn for anything twice.

nuevo

People always say to challenge yourself and that you'll "grow" from new experiences. Well I hate new experiences. I just feel uncomfortable. Maybe I'll learn a thing or two but in a couple of months I'm going to be back to normal, like it never happened. So what's the point really. Really. Is that super immature?

standing

We all think we're going to be great and we feel a little bit robbed when out expectations aren't met. But sometimes expectations sell us short. Sometimes the expected simply pales in comparison to the unexpected. You got to wonder why we cling to our expectations, because the expected is just what keeps us steady. Standing. Still, the expected is just the beginning, the unexpected is what changes our lives.

crazier

I wish the world didn't have to hurt so much.

I wish things could just be simpler and everyone I loved could be happier.

It's weird how you can have perfectly good days that leave you feeling empty and lonely at the end.

done?

[Mission "done" officially starts now. I deserve more than that. Now come and find me..]

Now that I look back at this post, I realize that my mission was pretty successful. Someone else did find me, although apparently I am not worthy enough to hold on to. Maybe I don't deserve more than that. What makes me so special. Why should I deserve more than anyone else. We're all human are we not? And I'm just me.

Maybe my problem is that I'm waiting for people to find me.

All I can do is try to be the best version of myself.

M.I.A.

lately, you've been missing from my dreams. come find me.