new beginnings

I feel it already. I feel it beginning to be a part of my past. There are moments when I'm nostalgic and sugarcoat the already sweet enough memories, but that's all they are, memories. You can't live in your memories. You just have to stand tall, and walk forward. Maybe it's ok to turn your head and glance back once in a while, but never turn around. You will miss all the beauty that lies ahead.

and cut

We are the lead actor in our own movies. We have a line in every scene and we are given the innermost details of our every thought. So when we fail to play a significant role in someone else's movie or are streamlined to a mere side character, it may sometimes come as a shock. Aren't we supposed to be the girl he ends up with as the credits roll? Aren't we supposed to be the one who gets the big break? The job of a lifetime? When things in life don't follow the script, it can be unsettling. Life doesn't every really seem to follow the script. Maybe we just have to settle for being the sidekick, maybe we have to settle for being the wrong girl, maybe we have to settle for being the one who doesn't get the big break, or the dream job. But maybe, just for now. Movies are supposed to have happy endings right?

beautiful mess

The power of your words.

the finish line

When we learn how to fly, we forget how to walk

When we learn how to sing, don't wanna hear each other talk

the angel and the one

Sometimes I want a taste, but then I don't know what I'm saying.

fairytale

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme. And some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end.

smoke and mirrors

Is it possible to have both high self-esteem and low self-esteem at the same time? There are moments where I feel so unworthy and uninteresting, but then there are moments where I feel completely confident and capable. I can flutter between these two states in a matter of hours. What does this say about me? Wouldn't a truly confident person remain consistently confident regardless of outside forces telling them otherwise? So I guess what I experience is a pseudo-confidence.

Society tries to go and empower us and emphasize the beauty of our individuality while simultaneously splattering images of unattainable "perfection" all over the walls. Then girls try to imitate this idea of perfection and portray their "perfect" selves to the rest of the world. The rest of us then wonder why we can't be as cool as that girl, or as talented as that girl, or as pretty as that girl. While those same girls who we envy look on at us and wonder the same. 

shine on

2 more months. yikes.